They come from the sub-conscious, I look at them afterwards and then I have an understanding of what they are or mean. This first one is my animus or inner voice when I find myself talking to myself (pictured above).
This second one came after the series, toward the end. I like working with the figure, and I can’t really pin point where it came from. This series is different from earlier work since I used figures. I hadn’t ever used them that much but I had always loved drawing from the figure and I just had the urge to get back to that.
The diver here, has similarities to the figure. I like that it is coming from my hand, sliding out from my grip but also returning to the hand. She is sad and the hand is holding her suffering but in public she is holding herself to the public. There is the public self and then the inner self.
Because I have worked with the figure so much even the abstraction have some of the same feeling as the more figurative forms. These are more geometric than my earlier work. I was just so interested in design but then I softened it. Almost art deco you could say.
Usually it is a neutral palette but the oil bars come in good strong colors that blend very well and really intrigued me. They are R & F brand. The different qualities of each color create such a beautiful texture, such as the matte finish and preserving that to maintain the subtle colors. I draw first with the pencil then I work with the oil bar, then the oil pastels, then back to the bar and then to the pencil. I use a brush, q-tips, and fingers. I also use turpentine.
Through the layers you can map the process. The many many layers, that it requires to create opaque color since the medium itself is fairly transparent. Like the white here you can see some of the tracing, the pencil underneath, left on purpose to give some of the shadowing effects
This one has some gold and copper, with the broken hair. I liked doing her, I enjoy the process and not the end goal. She is a repeating character for sure, with the broken hair. Hair is a new element since some of these figures are bald and exploring that element as an addition to the same figure.
Each one takes several weeks because the oil bars take a long time to dry. I work on them in the pencil and keep working, but once the oil bar goes down I have to step away for almost a week and some of the darker colors are even longer drying time.
The white ones have more apparent layers since there is far less medium. The hands are always protecting or nurturing, keeping this thought or person away from the other, creating a barrier with implied rigidity.
Filter, it is filtering out what is happening today or in kindness from the future generation or innocents which is why the mouth is open. the innocent character that is lacking detail and is unformed.
This piece was made right after the women’s march down town, expressing my feelings about the current situation. Marching in the 60’s, having to march again now, that it is having to happen again. This hand is strong and sturdy. A fatigued figure, still walking, marching, but exhausted.
and then on this wall a series of three, we called them crying pieces, in terms of story and composition were placed together when curated. They are just an expression of tears, this is “tears” and it is the collective unconscious of the world, can it is cry, broken pieces. This figure is stretching on to do something else, everyone of the hands are based on photographs my husband has taken of my hands. I love the figure and have an appreciation for the movements of the body, as I have a background in dance.
This piece because of the color and shape have a very specific connotation. I would say that first of all on the surface, public way, I don’t like the way that formal religions have affected the world. I don’t like how it has moved in to our government and justifying that oppression using religion and the muslim world. Any of those founders or saints of those religions would be crushed and appalled with what it has done. An institution that doesn’t serve humanity, and you can feel that. It is being said with very little information, communicating a very sad story. Another aspect is that sadness that comes with a lack of faith. I do not have faith.
Here is that same lady figure from before. She is very thin, and cut out of tissue paper, the artwork exists as a small cutout, here. It is another exploration of hair, a feeling of emptiness and remorse, crisis and panic. All of the hair you will find, something special and hidden.
These pieces also have red coloring, they work independently however, this is about protection, there is a figure that is leaving, facing away and is being protected from that experience. The hands represent both a single being or many characters. It is up to the viewer to decide who the hands belong to.
“A woman of an undetermined age”. I love women that are my age and I think that have a great sense of humor. I wanted to do a piece with a little bit of humor.